I have a vast reach with the directions I want my life to go in, but over the past few years there have been a few “places” in which I want to go. These decisions have been highly influenced by the people who inspire me, and without fail these people allow me to find focus in what I want and what I need to do.
Through out my life, which is admittedly short I have wanted to be many different things, a motorcycle riding ballerina and 1st female president among the choices, but few have stayed with me as much as filmmaking. When I was younger this goal was all about me, I wanted to be the writer, director, actor, make up artist, you name it and I wanted to take on that role in the films I was making, this is not to say I dont want to do all of these parts, but growing older I have recognized that working together on something, often will create better results (especially in film). More importantly though I have realised that, helping people reach their dream, is wonderfully gratifying, and film is a fantastic platform to help the world on a greater scale. This is where I introduce, one of the most influential/ inspirational people for me, Olen Rodgers. For anyone reading who has never been lucky enough to be introduced to his work I sugest taking some time to look him up on youtube or on his tumblr. Im not going to spend time describing what he does because the immportance of him for me does not come from the content of his videos, ( I do love them though) but his persistance to always better what he is doing, and how he uses what he has to help other people. He is one of the most positive people I dont know. I also want to say I am generally not this drawn to people I do not know, but his positivity, generosity and tallent, make him one of the people that make me want to make films, share with the world, and change my not so well mannered ways, while at the same time making me want to stick up for who I am, and celebrate how I am diffrent from him, and everyone else, and thrive as me.
The next person I would like to mention is Rachel. (Ayla’s photography) Every time I have a photo shoot with her I leave feeling better about myself and positively beautiful. She produces amazing art, is humble, and is always more interested in the art than the money. Her generosity stretches to people she barley knows, and she is just nice to be around. I am always trying to come up with unique costumes and makeup so I can have an excuse to work with her again. Without her, not only would my portfolio be quite small, but I don’t think I would have ever taken my modeling seriously.
Finally, this last year Dustin Dorough has given me something to be passionate about. Superman’s Hospital Heros is a great cause that caught my attention, and has held it since he announced he would be doing it. He has brought to the fore front that I want to help people, and I want to be apart of an organization or community that makes that a priority. Also he is a sometimes a relentlessly positive person. He makes me want to work out (which is quite a feat) and makes sleeping in my car seem perfectly reasonable if it helps reach one of my goals.
For those of you who know me, in, really, any capacity, know I am a little, tiny bit joker obsessed. So it my surprise you that all of the people in this have been people who are overly generous, and kind people, but the reality of the situation is the joker is a character that is fun, something to take out of this world, and when I am truly inspired I am hard wired into reality, and find the most gratification when I am helping someone who needs it, in whatever capacity that might be. The people who motivate me the most are not always the MOST talented, BEST in their field, or MOST accomplished people, but they are the people who stay positive through their adversity, work hard for what they want, and who consider the needs of other people.
Of course, being, well, me, I have to say that Scott McClure is also greatly inspirational. And if you have no idea who this is, well shame on you, how are we friends? You should know that this is the creator of “The Joker Blogs” who also plays the joker in the series. “The Joker Blogs” was the first time I ever contributed to an indygogo campaign, which was a radically eye opening experience I have repeated many times. The beauty in being able to have a choice in what gets made, and knowing I helped in the process of someone realizing their dream, is what I am all about. Besides that Scott is a damn good filmmaker.
There are more people and things in this world that inspire me, but I am currently uninspired to write anymore, so, good night.